Darta Hoon

Kuch aisi pehchaan bana li hai maine,
Ki ab toh apna naam sun ne se darta hoon.
Kahi maikhana khooni na ho jaaye,
Isliye main jaam uthane se darta hoon.

Is kadar dooba hu apne gamon me,
Ki ab toh khushi ke ehsaas se darta hoon.
Yuh toh kuch apne marham lagane ko bhi hai,
Apr main apni zakham dene ki fitrat se darta hoon.

Itne gunaah mere naam le rahe hai,
Ki ab toh nazrein milane se darta hoon.
Saza hai meri zindgi he mere liye,
Isliye ab maut ke ehsaas se darta hoon,

Koi bhi rishta nibha na paaya ab tak,
Isliye ab naya rishta banana se darta hoon.
Jaanta hoon ki kisi ka saath nibha na paaunga kabhi,
Isliye door ja rahe apno ko bulaane se darta hoon.

Aankho me he toot gaye mere sabhi armaan,
Ab toh main khwabon ke naam se darta hoon.
Falak se toote koi taara toh aankhe band kar toh leta hu,
Par fir khuda se kuch bhi maangne se darta hoon.

Itna tanha jiya hu main is zindgi me,
Ki ab toh mehfil ke naam se darta hoon.
Bina paaye he itna kuch khoya hai maine,
Ki ab toh kuch paane se bhi darta hoon.

Kahin ro na pade tanhaai mujhe dekh,
Isliye main tanha hone se darta hoon.
Na ho jaaye kahin ye zami lahuluhaan,
Isliye main askon ko girane se darta hoon.

Zindgi ke safar me log aate jaate rahenge,
Par main apni bhula na paane ki aadat se darta hoon.
Na khushi hoti hai na gam hai koi mujhe,
Par har pal pathar hote apne is dil se darta hoon.

Mehfil me mujhe seham kar baithna padta hai,
Kahin aa na jaaye tera naam zuba pe isliye zamane se darta hoon.
Fikar nahi mujhe apne is toote dil ki e humnafaz,
Main toh khud ko tere ansuo ki vajah banana se darta hoon.

Saari duniya se he chhupa kar rakha hai tujhe dil me,
Par har ek pal me aane wali teri yaadon se darta hoon.
Is kadar doob gaya hu tere pyar me e sanam,
Ki ab kisi aur ko ye dil dikhane se darta hoon.

Yun toh har zakham ke marham hai duniya me,
Par main koi bhi marham aajmane se darta hoon.
Tujhse kaise bayan karu ki ye zakham saza hai mere gunahon ki,
Jab main khud he tere saamne aane se darta hoon.

Tujhe paane ki khwaish toh na thi dil me kahbi,
Par bina paaye he tujhe main khone se darta hoon.
Basa rakha hai tujhe apni aankho me maine,
Isliye ek qatra ansu bhi ab main bahane se darta hoon.

Yuh toh fikar nahi mujhe bheed me chalne ki,
Par raahon par has kar mujhe ashik kehne waalon se darta hoon.
Main toh aane nahi deta hu tera zikar apni baaton me,
Par khamosh aankhe dekh jo pooche jaate hai un sawaalon se darta hoon.

Teri yaad me har lamha jeen ki khwasish hai meri,
Par har pal haath se fisalti in saanso se darta hoon.
Bas ek aakhiri baar tujhse milne ki khawish pe zinda hu,
Par zindgi ki ye baazi maut se haarne se darta hoon.

Dil zakhmi aur dhadkan bhi gunehgaar hai meri,
Ab toh main pyar ke har ehsaas se darta hoon.
Is kadar aadi ho chukka hu roz marne ka,
Ki ab toh zindgi ke naam se he darta hoon…